I’m chanting up to 2 rounds daily now, by Krishna’s mercy. Today while I was chanting, I was so distracted. I couldn’t concentrate at all! I even dropped my beads back into my bag once by mistake, in the middle of my round.
Then I thought I should try to picture Krishna to concentrate better. It also occurred to me how a fellow blogger, In Love With Krishna, mentioned that she tries to visualize Krishna while chanting (thank you, ILWK). So I decided to try to visualize Krishna. Oh, the sweetest image of Him formed in my mind! It was so beautiful! Krishna was surrounded by greenery. Lots of beautiful, vibrant trees and grass. His hair was long and wavy. He was wearing a blue headdress and I think even a blue dhoti, though I’m not so sure about this. I mainly remember seeing a lot of green and blue. He was holding the flute. He had the most beautiful face. He had the most loving look on His face. He was swaying, as was I. I found myself able to concentrate. I found the chanting to be so incredibly sweet. There was noise in my house as my family members were talking in the next room. In between their sentences, there were moments of silence, where I could hear the mantra clearly. Even with the noise I was still quite absorbed. It was just so sweet to see Krishna. He looked so sweet. So loving. The Hare Krishna mantra tasted so incredibly sweet at that moment. I really just cannot describe the sweetness and the love I felt in those few minutes. I didn’t want it to fade. I kept chanting, and I felt like I was going into a trance, but I was still conscious. By trance, I mean it felt like I was being taken in by the love and sweetness I was feeling. I didn’t want it to stop. I wanted it to be like that forever. It wasn’t a ‘vision’ but it was like I wanted to visualize Krishna and that was the image I saw. I felt like my chanting was pleasing Krishna, like I knew He was really listening to me. When I finished chanting my second round, I was surprised. “What? It’s over? Noooo, whyyyyy?!” I kept my bead bag back in its place, and all that flowed from my mouth were words of praise. I could do nothing but praise Krishna then. It reminded me of Dhruva Maharaja when he met the Lord. He had no words and all He wanted to do was praise Krishna. So Krishna gave him the ability to compose verses and Dhruva Maharaja composed the most beautiful verses in praise of Krishna. After what I experienced, I just felt inspired to worship and praise God, and thank Him for this sweet exchange. Lord, You are an ocean of mercy!
“I know no one but Krsna as my Lord, and He shall remain so even if He handles me roughly by His embrace or makes me brokenhearted by not being present before me. He is completely free to do anything and everything, for He is always my worshipful Lord, unconditionally.” Siksastakam, Verse 8